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Jun 1, 2010

Day in Nature











Today, Deb & I drove to Bodega Bay on the Pacific coast. We stopped at the site of the school and church where Alfred Hitchcock's 'The Birds' was filmed (creepy peepy). Then we went for a horseback ride with a guide named Scott (who rode bareback). Deb rode Sid and I rode Gibson. It had been many years since either of us had been riding. The hills were speckled with wildflowers and the temperature and sunshine were wonderful. By the end of the ride, one of my knees was talking to me and when I dismounted I couldn't walk or put weight on the knee, eek. Fortunately, a little massage and resting for about five minutes and I was good to go.



We drove up the coast and stopped at several beaches. At Jenner, the town where the Russian River enters the Pacific, we could see many sea lions laying like matchsticks on the sand. We drove along the river and the landscape changed from the windswept coastal hills to more deeply forested areas. We are staying the night in Guerneville at a lovely place with a fireplace and a deck over-looking a huge blackberry patch. We walked the town and had dinner. Tomorrow morning we'll go see some serious redwood forest at Armstrong State Park and then head back to my home in San Jose.



I will attach a few photos when I get home. Debie is experiencing a mixture of physical events, she is strong like a bull and her spirit is fierce and loving. Thanks, Denver friends for supporting her animals and household so she could come a play with me.

Peggy

May 31, 2010

Little CA Vacation







Debie is visiting Peggy. She flew into San Jose. The next day we drove up to the Petaluma area to be in place for a cob ( sand, clay, straw) oven building workshop which Debs had signed us up for. Though we had fun, the structure came tumbling down late in the second day and it was too late for us to start again...leaving the homeowners and workshop leader with a bit of a mess. PS Don't take out the supports for your oven too soon...as our leader did.

Today, we did a 12-hour day touring. We had a morning 3+ hour tour at 'Safari West' just outside of Santa Rosa. Our guides and the general feel of the wildlife exhibits were wonderful! The Safari jeep ride lasted about two hours and along the way we learned a lot about the animals. Debie rode shotgun with the guide and I took a turn on the upper-deck seats. My personal favorites were the giraffes (12 or so), Debie's favorites were the bird avary (the bird who goes in the crocodile's mouth) and the Serval cat. We then drove to Point Reyes, aiming for the lighthouse. When we finally got near, it was very foggy. We walked uphill on a path for a long way before we got to the signs that said "Continuing to the lighthouse will be going down the equilivant of 30 stories of stairs and of returning up the same. Well, I was done. Not Debie, she zipped down and back, mercy! More fun to come.

Peggy

May 12, 2010

if I don't feel good...

Another interesting thing that happens when one had defied the odds, and recovered from the 'unrecoverable, is when a few days come with another health challenge, not to go into fear that 'it's back!", but to stay in the breath of life, where there is all knowledge and the healing comes from the meditation, the encounters, the givingness so everpresent in everyone. Gratitude again(you all tired of the word, yet?)

May 7, 2010

Gift from Deb


In Debie's e-mail list, I somehow became listed as 'peggy O'. When I laughed and asked Debie if that was like 'Jackie O', she said... if you think that's funny, wait til you get the version from UPS calling you 'Raggy'. A nice hint that something was in the mail... and a funny new name.

She arrived. I am thankful to Debie for giving me one of her 'Earth Mothers' ! They are my favorites as they are kind of a signature piece and remind me of Debie the most. Having a piece of Debie's art here at home feels like having a little piece of Debie near me.

Thank you, thank you, thank you !
This is just a physical reminded of Debie's many gifts to me.

The 'Mother Earth' at first didn't want to leave the inside of the house; then she tried sitting on a table on the patio (could see her going in and out); then she spotted the center of the garden (could be seen going in and out and from the kitchen); plus she felt more at home in nature. WOW ! Perfect !
Love, Raggy

bits and pieces

I sent Peggy her favorite sculpture. The ups label said "raggy Prazma", guess she walked around in the pink robe and black socks and shoes too many times, reputation made! Dr. Hatt, well it was time to see him and talk about his reaction in December to coughing up blood(which was, oh, it is probably only a broken blood vessel)..and I hoped to get my painful rib fixed, but he thinks, because it did not fix, it is a possible pulmonary embolism....ich, what next. Dr. Hatt, I think felt confronted but he did look at the blogspot, and he did apologize, I appreciate a practitioner who can see errors, including myself. I will be far more serious about everybodies symptoms. I was in expectation of an easy road, but not yet.... Ann Kim kindly did some wonderful massage, followed by Dr. Quell putting rib back in, but to no avail, pain wise. I just returned from Dr. Pau in Boulder, lots of herbs to cook and a little more relief. I feel so grateful to know that help is all around me and glad to have enough money to pay for what I need. Being with Bart for coffee was a good thing. It gave me a chance to remember that he, too is deeply in my heart, and that he gave me the great gift of being with me even though the head swelling/tumors caused me to act out. I got to say thank you to him. I also feel some grace and forgiveness of myself over the acting out in regard to brain swelling and tumors.

Apr 26, 2010

returning tribe

Returning tribe! Lynda has decided to learn to cook healthy, and I am happy to help her learn. We will chop away at beautiful organic veggies on Tuesday, and 'wok' them, serve them up with organic brown rice... Celebration. John Yang called at the perfect moment after cindy and the green earth festival yesterday, to remind me that he leads(with some others) a camp for cancer survivor children and their peers. He is a nurse practicing in Austin, but will be back in Colorado to be with those wonderful kids! My hope is that this blogspot inspires all kinds of inquiry...I feel that desire right down to my cell centers. the excitement of it. For this awakening to the nature of body, mind, spirit, and that we ourselves hold the power to control the direction of our return to health, when we have wondered around for a while in our own persomal wilderness.. I have been listening to an old song filled with wisdom."Desperado...the queen of hearts is always your best hand."
Gary is helping, always helping, excitement about building magical things, he always makes new ideas happen. Gratitude, and joy mixed with excitement is a wonderful healing mix for my mind and spirit...

Apr 23, 2010

Peg the writer

Peg's writing is magnificent. I swear she has a brain like and elephant,and I so miss her...tribe member, sister, dearest friend, come back!!! ...or else I may have to move there! Deb

now

Now is more healing time, more being clear about how to feed/fuel for life. How to give help to others awakening to cancer and being at that stage where a hand might be of use. My body and mind seem to have way more light than before. I wish I could be with all my tribe every day....

Apr 21, 2010

Missing Debs

Despite being together (or perhaps because we were together) for so much of the last two months I am missing Debie. Debie had asked me for a timeline of our travels...she has no idea I will write all this...

We met in San Diego on Monday, February 22nd at her cousin Linda Eager's. Linda cooked up a storm with love but found that Debie wouldn't eat any of it because she was focused on a cancer diet of fresh fruits, vegetables and a little grain. Deb and I went to Tijuana (2/24) and had lunch at the Gerson Clinic which Debie had arranged. We toured the clinic, had lunch with patients and Ms. Gerson (83 year old daughter of Dr. Gerson), and went to a lecture/question session with patients and Ms. Gerson. The clinic program involves drinking 13 juices a day (hourly), eating meals of fruits and vegetables, and doing coffee enemas to cleanse the system. Ms. Gerson feels the three worst things for your body are sodium/salt, animal products, and floride. This diet program is thought to be a little dated by other authors. Ms. Gerson was not recommending treatment for Debie due to concerns about brain swelling. She'd heard that the Burzynski Clinic in Houston was having more success with brain cancers. We spent a couple of afternoons at the beach in San Diego, had a pedicure treat from our generous hostess Linda and parted Friday, February 26th...with a plan for me to go to Denver the next week.

On Wednesday, March 3rd I flew to Denver and met Sophie (the dog), Cassie (the cat) and many of Debie's friends: Kim, Marjorie, Barry, Susan, Lori, Wendy, etc. I saw Debs' beautiful studio addition, art, and garden work. I was treated to a Atlas Profilax treatment which was a neck bone realignment by Darce (my posture is a work in progress). Took Deb to her Chinese doctor of the last 20 years, Dr. Pau. We saw two movies: 2012 and Avatar with 3-D glasses. I joined Deb at a 'play dance' group that she co-led. I flew home Sunday, March 7th...with the plan to meet in Houston, Texas to check out the Burzynski Clinic.

Arrangements were made and we met in Houston on Tuesday, March 16th. Debie had an MRI done that day in Denver and had to take a late flight. The condo we rented was owned by a very nice man who works in international relations at the clinic. The two story condo was perfect, homey, fully equipped and gave us each some privacy. The appointment at the Burzynski Clinic the next day did not go well. The staff was overburdened (too much growth from the Suzanne Sommers book Knockout?). We experienced: unprepared doctors (hesitant to give statistics/ couldn't give one reference of someone with a similar cancer), uninformed doctors (diet ignorant, couldn't show MRI without radiologist); patients care concerns (man in waiting room with a high blood pressure reaction to their medicines was given his second pill to lower his BP but left there...not being monitored, not elevated); lack of awareness of visiting cancer patient needs (no organic foods in cafe, snacks given at lecture - fried veg. chips, salty pretzels, peanut butter filled crackers; etc. Their medicine might be good but the clinic seemed uninformed and unconcerned about cancer patients. Keep in mind this treatment is very expensive!!! Estimate $100,000. with drugs over a year +. Deb got her $1,000. for her introduction day back and we left. Back at the condo, we licked our wounds of lost hope and disappointment and made our plans to each return to our homes in a couple of days. We read and researched diets, trying a bit of the Budwig Diet. During this thinking time Deb talked to her cousin, Tim, who knew a woman from the Denver area who had been cured of breast cancer by a healer in South Dakota named John. Did Deb want to talk to the woman? Sure... Deb will talk to anyone and she's good at it. The woman returned Debie's phone message and they talked at length. Debie made contact with John and he agreed to see Debie late the following Monday in South Dakota. Flight and rental car plans were changed ...plans were made to go back to Denver then onto South Dakota.

We flew from Houston to Denver on Saturday, March 20th. Debie retrieved for me a rental car fee of $280. for returning the car to a different airport by talking to the manager...played the "C" card. I was treated to a cheerful dinner gathering with Marjorie at her friend, David's house. On Sunday, we gathered organic fruits and vegetables, hotwater teapot, juicer, cooler, snow clothes and packed for an early morning get-away. John's customers all stay at a particular motel where he comes to see them. We booked adjoining rooms, we each had two beds, a desk area, closet area, and bathoom. We also each got a small refrigerator and I had a microwave. We knew John charges a flat rate ($3,500.), and ones stay is generally a week. Debie had heard he had been put in jail after a new medical facility came to town but that the warden released him (they hadn't convicted him of anything) after about 6 months of him healing the people in the jail. Good story, anyway. We arrived in Belle Fourche, South Dakota about 3:30pm on Monday, March 22nd. We later found out from the motel staff and other customers that John sees anywhere from 5 to 10 customers at the motel most days except Sundays. John says he has been doing this for 33 years. Debie & I wonder what he does with all the money... we hope he is putting it to good use. His life style is not visibly high and he works 6 days a week, sometimes late into the night when someone is very ill. We do think the amount of money would sort out people who were not serious or seriously ill.

John is 72 years old, he has white hair, he runs and is quite fit. John wears western shirts (most of which his wife has made for him) and a blue plaid jacket. He checks your eyes, blood smear on paper, saliva lick on paper, through feel he decides which pills you need, he uses touch, cold lasers, muscle testing. The pills detox and supplement your body. They may make you vomit and you will have diarrhea! Many pills 3 times a day; by about day 4 or 5 you start to feel a bit better. John's visits continue with touch and muscle testing. On a daily basis, one never knows when he will arrive that day. The effect is that you have to stick around your room even if you felt good enough to go out and about. It seems by design, his schedule is meant for the person to stay near their room and rest. He can report on your progress. When he can detect no more cancer in your body he will take another blood smear and check it before reporting that it's good.

As Deb approached the end of her week, she asked John if he would check me. He didn't commit. After several days, John said he would but only if I was ready to quit smoking. I knew that was coming. I also had the feeling long ago when Debie first called that I was going to be faced with quitting smoking. I was doing so well...I love smoking! I smoked outside the Gerson Clinic; I smoked in the Burzynski parking lot and outside the condo; I smoked outside Deb's house; I smoked outside the motel. Bottom line, I committed. I was diagnosed by John of some lymph, leukemia and a touch of lung cancer. I paid my fee, quit smoking, took 40 pills 3 times a day, got sick like a dog for a few days. Deb drove back to Denver then came back with Sophie (dog) to care and hang with me. We snuck out on Easter Sunday to go see Devil Tower, very cool. During this time she visited and helped other customers who needed encouragement. We found people from many states there to see John. On our last day, (against my advice) Debie said to John, "Were you in jail?". John smiled and said, "Yes, they've tried to close me down many times".

Debie & I returned to Denver on Thursday, April 8th. I flew home to San Jose, California on Friday, April 9th. Debie is with her tribe of friends (who I really, really like).


My take on all this. #1 Debie has nothing to lose!
#2 We have both loved being together again!
#3 Living with hope is grand!
#4 I'm there with her.
Peggy

Apr 19, 2010

Recovery

doesn't look like I thought it would. Tiredness happens as my happy body rebuilds. Everything is new. I was coughing up blood, and got scared, lost faith a bit, and sent John blood and saliva...he said there is no trace of cancer in me! Good to have reassurance, and please take a teaspoon of cayenne in a glass of water, three times a day. Do you'all know what that is like? If feels like pure fire, and definitely needs a chaser instantly. I really think it cautarizies anything and everything...also a great wake up for the entire digestive system....also great at bringing up fear of major internal fires...