WOW!!!

That is wonderful Deb!!!! What a blessing to hear about the cancer free! I can't wait to see you in Denver and hear more about this amazing adventure! Love, Marjie

guess what?

I feel blessed. I am cancer free. Thank you everyone..I MEAN EVERYONE EQUALLY. Every prayer, every good wish, every walking with me to the doctors, ideas for healing, thoughts, love, talking on the phone, all of it seems to me to be necessary pieces. I am going home for three days, then a return to support my dear friend who tomorrow begins her journey here...what a gift to be here with her, as she has been for me...I ask that you keep sending whatever works so well, for her as well...and for me not to slide to keep building myself back. Thank you isn't a big enough work. I'll get back to you when I can think of a bigger one, or some other way. love, love, love...love is all there is! ( John Lennon)

waiting

is my least favotie thing! I realize that I desire more trust in the divine timing...John isn't here, he is probably dealing with lots of other people, he may not show up so we can leave, so what. So it might just be perfect, anyhow!

Debie & John

Deb greeted John, "Where were you yesterday?"!!!
John said, "With my family"
Debs, "Oh, Okay".
After John told Debie he could detect no cancer but would do
a blood test to check. Deb "Wow-ed" Too hard to wrap our
heads around this. Please, let it be true.
Deb said, "I bet I'm one of your best patients".
John made a hand motion tilting his hand back and forth.
Deb said, "What does that motion mean?"!!!
John smiled, "I'm just waving goodbye".

flowers

Marjie just had some beautiful flowers delivered...Peg and I both feel special. They are decorating Peg's room, because I sort of make a mess and her room looks like the maid just finished. The flowers speak of rebirth, new spring tulips, and other things in a beautiful flat vase that I am already  excited to use at home. thank you, Marjie!

look ma, no

John has to check my blood, but he could detect no signs of cancer in me today. I feel in shock, and cannot believe it, perhaps not even tomorrow. I still feel incredibly weak, with nausea, guess the healing would take four to six weeks, to feel good again. Just because the cancer may be gone, I suspect there is more healing to be done. But also celebration...where would you all most like to go in the world?

Beach Fun

The sound of the waves and a friend, life doesn't get much better.

Kristen

I talked to Kristen this morning. Both she and Lillie are reading the posts. That feels like a hurray...Julie of Julia and Julie, the movie! Kristen is my Yoda of everything computer, especially games, blogs, info on things metaphysical.. I, being holed up here in a room, with wi-fi, found a great game. It was fun playing while she was, blowing things ukp(the cancer) with napalm, dinomite and fire, planting green things, comparing notes...it was like hanging out together.
Scary dreams last night, being in a play, not wanting to. Having to move to a weird apartment, and a guy brought in this piece of coral filled with gems, but to get to them, there were dangerous water snakes, one broke his thumb, then went hiding in the apartment., very scary! anyone 'get' this? all you dream analyzers?
P.S. Peg was too the instigator, often!

I just opened this Blog....I can't believe it.....

I just opened this Blog....I can't believe it.....Debbie is up to 80% since Friday....Wow this is incredible, that is wonderful....I am so happy for her it is a miracle...I need this too for myself ....Love, Barry

Best Friend

    Debie and I were best friends growing up. We were totally absorbed in our world of play and fun. Best remembered were activities such as snow igloos/slides; puppet shows; hand-stand mastering; hide-in-seek in the dark in her basement rec room; sand mud-pies and on into many teen adventures with the usual trials and tribulations.
    People tried to separate us...separate classrooms, separate jr. highs; but we reconnected and never lost the ease of being with each other and sharing. John, her brother, recently said, "Even though I was quite young, I do recall that Debie was the one who instigated most of the ideas for your adventures". Thank you, John, I was an innocent lamb taken happily along.
    We did go our own ways in college and adulthood. There were many years that went by without seeing each other or little contact but we never lost touch. I knew she was out there as a piece of my life. When Debs called with the news of her cancer, I was fortunate to be at a time of my life when I could go on another adventure with her.
    This adventure has allowed me to know a bit of Debie as an adult. She is not an easy person (we all think we are easy). She still leads into the unknown and has very stong views...both to her credit. I am learning things from her...standing up more firmly when things are not right; seeking non-mainstream alternatives; spirit/ecology/earth/health information seeking. I think of her as a seeker. She is spirited, upbeat, and loving. I love her laugh.
    Throughout this journey I am amazed at Debie's concern for those around her. She is not just focused on her own healing but is always reaching out to know and help others. This is a large part of Debie's gift to the world through her art and interactions. This is not always comfortable but Debs pushes our boundaries and encourages growth. I am very happy to be taking part in a portion of her healing journey.
    Love to Debs, Pegs

Sunday

WHat wonderful information!!! Beautiful day here in Colorado. I really enjoyed hearing about Yukon Jack?, what an interesting story! Hang in there! Love, MM

Yucan Jack

I spoke to Yukan Jack today on the phone. He saw John in 1994, and again one more time when his cancer came back, but since then, he has been cancer free, and he had cancer everywhere when he first came to see John, was maybe five to ten days from death. He says to stay more than the minimum, which is disappointing, as I was hoping to get home and back to art and bills and people there that I miss.
His wife, an Rn, died after 41 days of cancer diagnoses in the late eightys, and then his seven year old daughter was 'chemo therapied' to death. At one point, it was so painful, that he went to his cabin about Silverthorne, preparing to die. Finally, one day he took a walk, quite a ways from the cabin, and realized he had come without his oxygen. He felt fearful, and just sat down, to go no further. He got to 'thinkin', well, I got out here, now I think I can get back, and he did, and for the first time he walked up the stairs to the cabin, one foot on each stair 'like a man'...and he went back to John for a few more weeks, and now, at 75, he is alive and well and a cowboy along the border to Canada...
He is inspiring me to stay on board with the process. I feel grateful for this new person to talk to, a coach!

The healing is fast...

I have gone up to 80% healed, as of yesterday. It feels like a miracle, but I know the great power of positive thought, and it is all around me! I am grateful all the time, to all of you, and the life journey on this earth. I wish I could impart what it feels like to face death so squarely and how it is worth supporting life with healthy thought, nutrition, and actions.

Almost a week

Peg and I have been in Belle Fourche for about six days....I am surprised that neither of us is getting restless. Me, because I get sick every time I take more pills, which is three times a day, peg, well, maybe because she really has angel wings hidden under her jacket, and maybe she goes for airlifts when I am not looking.
John came earlier yesterday, and Peg was in her bathroom, I thought contently doing bathrooms things, but them she decided to put on her black shoes, and a towel, and come borrow my skin cream, and there we were, John, me and my semi underdressed friend, well, if there is healing in humor, I'm cured! It would be hard to be the blushing sort of naked one, so thanks Peg!

Happy B'day Sis

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
May God Bless and keep you
Happy Birthday to you !!!

John of 'spearfish

John came to me yesterday, and it was hard to hear, that his tests put my number at 600 or terminal...but there was hope...well.I was hoping for a definite' of course we can heal this.'..today he told me that I had healed six percent...I like that and can't wait to see how better it is tomorrow. Peg is still buying fruits and vegetables like mad, with so much training, she will be ready to open her own juice bar. I lie around sick feeling but know it is all needed and good. We showed Larry(healed now of matastisized protate canceer) and claudia how to juice...she is going to try and send me goat cottage cheese for the budwig diet.
They prayed for me. IT was very touching
, no one could have done that six months ago, and me accept it as a wonderful gift....blessings to all

Do you ever need a Lullaby

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=enCMclzUFEI

This is beautiful

I love fruits and vegetables

Glad you had a safe journey up there. Wow, it was so good to see your beautiful face and positive spirit and "5" instead of DSW! What a beautiful photo you posted. Yum, I love fruits and vegetables - youv'e been such an inspiration. I am not having my party until April 4 or 11. We'll see if and when the spirit moves me. I look forward to having you here. Happy purging. LOL and LOL
March 23, 2010

Kim

has put so many important web site connections on this, wow, worth looking at.

Gorgeous Tueday with CASSIE

    WOW! It was nice to see all the postings as I myself am not used to using a blog!
    It is a beautiful day and my morning fell apart, so I am hanging out with Bugs (my cat), Chancey (my new dog with a new name) and Cassie (Deb's cat) who is having trouble in a new place, but, at least with company. It will take some time for her to get comfortable.
    THe Dr. Mercola website had interesting information today on using Vit.A along with VIt. D, as it cancels the effects of the Vit. D, which is now considered one of the best anticancer vitamins!
    My own personal favorite program is called "This works, crutches don't!". It is a nutritional program to fix your bowel, allowing it to absorb the foods you need and eliminate the waste products that need to be removed. Although you may think your bowel is working OK, most of us aren't working as they were meant. If you don't have a major illness, it can take a long time to really fix it, but, the result is worth it as people who follow this do not get the major illnesses such as cancer, heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, etc. When you do have a major illness, the program is pretty radical, but, I'm sure worth it considering the alternative!! Eventually, foods that would give a problem won't as the body can handle most foods when the bowel works correctly. In Deb's situation I would also add anything else I found which works.
    I don't mean to push anything, I just thought this sight is also for putting out the healing modalities which you have found to work. So far I have better energy, mental attitude, and bowel movements than ever! Just something that I have found to be very effective and I'm not on the hard core program!!!

Enjoy your day!
Namaste, Marjie

P.S. You are amazing Deb as you look better than the rest of us!!!

About Deb....

Deb, is a beautiful woman, who is so full of life you would never guess she has anything wrong with her. She continuing to live her life with the commitment to heal herself in a matter of self survival " I want to live, it is not my time now". She is a very strong woman and who has very good soul. Her friend Barry

How goes it

"I think Deb & Peggy must be in South Dakota."
How goes it?  I am eating more raw ground up veggies and they are so good.
Thanks Deb

Belle Fourche

A french word 'fork' and another 'beautiful', so, I, too, am at a beautiful 'fork'...here to see "John", who is underground with his work, so as not to be seen by the AMA...who would love to put this man in jail, probably for good. Yet, I am going to trust him, he says he has a close to one hundred per cent cure rate....
Now I am taking a bunch of herbal pills, they are suppose to make me purge...and also to eat only fruits or vegetables...so here we are, Pegs and me on a mystical trail...to learn how to heal it all, body, mind, soul, spirit...

Om.mm.mmmm

Fabulous postings.. It is so nice to see everyone getting on board and sharing, we are off to a great start blogging.  
Deb and Peggy are on an interesting and magical journey.

H

Hands in Namaste

 Healing for All

 Much Love To Everyone
 

Let's Talk

So, lets talk about the Burzynski Clinic...I was hopeful, excited even, expecting to be in Houston for two weeks...but it was not right., glossy and executive, hairsprayed receptionist, highly perfumed money taker..waiting and no food, waiting and no information, waiting while Peg got the powerpoint presentation with snacks designed to further the cancer invasion... and finally I got my thousand dollars back...to go elsewhere...but Peg, my oldest, dearest childhood friend is here, and all is well, FUN, even, as we learn the Budwig Diet(from the late great Johanna Budwig, that consistently missed the Nobel Prize by a 'hair', probably a male hair, I would guess}, and regroup and replan...tomorrow Denver with a rental car to go to ...you guessed it, Spearfish, South Dakota(you didn't guess it?, will neither did I.

Burzynski world

We were at four hours sleep when Peg and I entered the Clinic, and mostly waited, without food, without being helped, without anything but the perfunctory wt, ht, blood pressure, then nothing. Then payment was wanted...a thousand dollars for starters after five hundred dollars to look at my dr. reports, cds

Burzinski clinic

WE(Peg from San Jose, me from Denver)with high hopes of this gene matching technology. Tired from four hours sleep but ready to see what was offered we entered a high tech building, very high end business look, not at all clinic-y///

All the good is an infusion

Many cancer people will be caught up in Western Medicine, having infusions of chemotherapy. I choose to have so much good and love and close deep friendship infusions that there isn't any rooms for poison!

Woman with a bald head

I met a woman in the airport with a bald head...and now that I've got the label "stage four, lung metastisized cancer" I chose to ask her if she had cancer. She was eating a MacdDonalds meal-hamburger, fries, etc, and waiting for the same plane, to Houston. Yep, I am incognito, she is obvious, and has lung cancer, one lung removed, the other receiving, well ALL OF HER receiving chemo therapy, already at seven treatments. Her uncle, a MD/PHD is insisting on 17 chemo sessions, she says. She is Samantha, Sammie. We share and talk. I tell her about the Budwig Diet...she confides that she is already really tired. She is going to be an MD/Phd, when she gets thru this.

First Notice

of something wrong was coughing up blood in December of 08, followed by antibiotics that seem to cause a healing...and a miraculous year of getting stronger, then all of a sudden, the return of coughing up blood, and trying to hide it, it felt like it would shock people. Solstice celebration with Mile Hi and Doc. Pattie..my friends Susan and Marjie praying for me to get thru this without looking abnormal...and the prayers worked. Then Dr. Hatt saying 'it is just a broken blood vessel"....and being referred to a pretty light weight acupuncturist...nothing worked...finally the real deal, My oldest and most powerful chinese doc. Pau, and Wei who does the herbs, healed the bleeding in two days, but for the first time, they were worried about me.... then a broncoscopy that gave me pneumonia, and the verdict, over the phone, you have this cancer, an non-smokers non small cell adnocarcinoma...what? me? Miss SUper HEalthy? It takes a few days to not be lost, to be excited about some adventure in changing that which needs to be changed--to purify thinking to a joyful constant, to allow friends to call themselves in with such love, that the journey becomes so achingly beautiful....

Deb and I went to a sweat lodge recently. She drove us in her 4-wheel-drive red truck up the narrow, rutted and winding, snowy road to the top of the mountain. She was so excited and it was a spectacular day - crystal clear, blue sky and sunny; bird's singing, snow sparkling on pine trees that scented the air with peace; cold muddy ground on bare feet; vibrant aspens with life stored in the bark and tree trunk cores, waiting for spring; wood smoke heating the stones to an orange glow, full of wisdom to share. This lodge was based on Lakota traditions and in the honoring of each cardinal direction; they began in the West. We prayed for ourselves in the first round of the west with Luc, the water pourer, speaking in answer to each one's prayer, channeling comments and wisdom or advice from a departed and respected Elder. We prayed for others in the second round of the North, and waited outside the lodge during the pipe ceremony of the third round, not wanting to subject our lungs to the smoke - despite the fact that the sacred herb, tobacco, used as visible prayer in ceremony in this way, is often used in healing ceremonies. Our clothes were wet and it was cold and healing to be in the forest, breathing mountain air on this beautiful land. We warmed up quickly, grateful to return to the sweatlodge for the final round of prayer and song. Deb's spirit was light, joyful, and playful and she found herself occasionally suppressing laughter in respect for the pervading mood of others. Perhaps she was beyond the drama portrayed in the stories and prayers of others, past the self-deprecation, self-flaggellating, beyond begging the Creator to be more, better, stronger... for she is all she can be now and going for more in her quest for the ultimate healing with all the passion and joy, fear, adventure and conquest she brings to all that comes her way.

Thurs. evening

Hi all,
This is a wonderful picture of Deb! I love the hearts! I am taking the kitty (Cassie), but, am waiting for the right moment. Probably tomorrow so she has company in that snow storm. Would love to hear the latest updates. Marjorie

This is such a beautiful picture of Deb. It reminds me of when we put our brochure together to do chair massage! It's a picture of health and beauty - how I always see Deb. Wishing you many blessings on your journey Deb. I've never done a blog before, so how 'bout that? Wondering where the kitty is. I would have loved to have taken her.
March 17, 2010

Deb is on her way to a clinic in Texas today. This is an alternative medical facility.
A clinic that has had success with brain cancer. (http://www.burzynskiclinic.com/)
My vision of this blog is to have Deb and friends participate as the events of this experience unfold.

Introduction

This is Deborah Grebenar, artist and teacher with tremendous passion and talent.
(Find out more about this artist http://debgrebenar.blogspot.com/)
Deb started having trouble one year ago when she started coughing up blood. She received medical attention and was monitored for a year. This last December of 2009 she had another problem with coughing up blood, this time they did a biopsy and found lung cancer and later an MRI revealed metastasis in the brain.