First Notice

of something wrong was coughing up blood in December of 08, followed by antibiotics that seem to cause a healing...and a miraculous year of getting stronger, then all of a sudden, the return of coughing up blood, and trying to hide it, it felt like it would shock people. Solstice celebration with Mile Hi and Doc. Pattie..my friends Susan and Marjie praying for me to get thru this without looking abnormal...and the prayers worked. Then Dr. Hatt saying 'it is just a broken blood vessel"....and being referred to a pretty light weight acupuncturist...nothing worked...finally the real deal, My oldest and most powerful chinese doc. Pau, and Wei who does the herbs, healed the bleeding in two days, but for the first time, they were worried about me.... then a broncoscopy that gave me pneumonia, and the verdict, over the phone, you have this cancer, an non-smokers non small cell adnocarcinoma...what? me? Miss SUper HEalthy? It takes a few days to not be lost, to be excited about some adventure in changing that which needs to be changed--to purify thinking to a joyful constant, to allow friends to call themselves in with such love, that the journey becomes so achingly beautiful....